losing the fight

I'm fighting my emotions as all people do who are under the influence but I'm one of those who can handle their booze. Its my birthday today so I'm celebrating with a few pints. I'm 49 today but feel alot younger though.I feel great bit on having a few doubts aether its worth living. I have no job no money but I have my health and my spirit. . I got an eviction verbal notice from my landlord today I have a week to come up with some money or ill be out on the street. I'm staying positive that it will work out but I'm doubt dull, I will keep you posted as to what's going to happen... Chowders I'm out!!!!!!!!!!